Grief of You
I’m still with the man I’m grieving, I’m not sure if that’s the best way to put it. I know I’m slowly getting into the mindset of ending such a toxic relationship, but the pain and love I feel so strongly is crippling. Mourning the end of us and our love is breaking me. We could keep fighting forever, breaking up and coming back together more in tatters each time. But I know I need another chance, I know I will never be loved by him how I want to. I need to heal myself and try to regain my self-esteem, rebuild relationships I put off because I was too busy with my relationship, focus on my work and trying to elevate myself. I realize my family isn’t going to be there for me, I need to try to find happiness in myself and the people who want to make me happy instead of chasing the approval and love of people who don’t really care. I want to take better care of myself and my dog, and get out of this basement. It’s not a matter of if the relationship will end it’s when. I realize I love h